it's taken me a while but i think i'm finally starting to get my footing with things. between getting into the routine of senior year and settling into marriage, i've been spinning. and now november is here, and things are still a bit wobbly, but they're becoming more clear as the days go by. the change in routine that happened when school started and i got married happened all at once and i fought that change hard. because that whole "getting there" process, being "changed" seems to take foreeeeeeever. even if it is just a couple months. and i wouldn't consider myself "there" quite yet. but i feel a lot closer. and thats nice. the change has been good. i feel like an adult? not like the "i have a job and can pay my own bills" kind of adult, but like the "i plan meals and make my bed (most days)" kind of adult. the "i do my laundry on a regular basis" kind of adult. my magazines are perfectly staggered so that as soon as i finish one, a new one arrives, and i've become an "i read every single article from start to finish" type of adult, too. last weekend i finally took the last of my old unwanteds to the DI, and got pictures and our chalkboard hanging so now our front room doesn't look like a storage room anymore. from the perfectly staggared magazines, to the dinners on our hand-me-down sofa, to the sleepy mornings darting to turn on the heater so it's warm while we get ready in the dark, this teeny little apartment, this life, is starting to feel like ours.
You are so cute! It's amazing how big of a change it is when we get married! And when you look back after being married 5 1/2 years and think, a couple months of adjusting wasn't long at all! But oh how looooooong those months seemed when we were in the moment :) ha ha! I think you're doing a GREAT job!
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