happy

leading up to your wedding you get a lot of unsolicited advice from anyone who knows you about what you should do and what you should expect on your wedding day. inevitably something huge and important will go awry, don't sweat the details, have a morning wedding, have a night wedding, do not have an afternoon wedding, you're going to be so stressed out, you wont get to eat, you should definitely make sure you eat, etc etc and so on and so forth. its like you go into the day expecting it not to be perfect.

well guess what, we had an afternoon wedding, and it rocked. 

in some of ways, our wedding day was exactly what i expected it would be, kinda crazy, and kinda tired. but in a lot of ways it wasn't.

after the ceremony and the pictures and before the reception. there was a small gap of time where scott and i were at the reception center just us, kickin back and hanging out. i think i will always remember it as one of my favorite parts of the day. because beneath the flowers and the dress and the favors wasn't that the whole point of the day? me and him, best friends, starting our new life together. it was just so relaxed. it gave both of us an opportunity to really take in the day, and it set the precedent for the rest of the night. we just did us, and that is what i think made our day our own kind of perfect. 

if i could describe our wedding day in a word , it would be "happy". because that's what it was. i didn't care that our cake fell apart, it wasn't the end of the world that we didn't have any flowers for half our pictures. i ate at our luncheon and at our reception and heck i even had a second serving of dessert because gosh darn it it was my wedding and i wanted 2 brownies. 

basically everyone knew that when scott and i knelt over the alter together that day that i would just be a big emotional mess because as much as i try to deny it i am just tenderhearted crybaby, and you know what, on your wedding day that is totally justified. but as we knelt and looked at each other, and made promises to each other, i didn't cry. instead, i couldn't stop smiling. one of those big, trying to hide laughter kind of smiles. you know what i'm talking about? where you're just so happy and excited that the only appropriate display of emotion is laughter (all of this, i felt, was totally inappropriate, being in the temple and all). this is what was going through my head the whole time "how freaking cool is this?! this is so cool! im so exicted!" 

threw me for a loop, which i don't know why because that's what our whole relationship has been since the very beginning, and what it has been since, 

happy.